Thoughts into Words

A Long Long Time…

I have never thought that I will be writing on this blog again, but the sudden thought came while I was just cooling down from the day of striving to make a living… Or so I thought.

Many months have passed by, many things have happened, many lessons learnt…

There were much joy and much pain experienced in a season full of ups and downs.

I’m no longer sure if I am able to get through this year with the spiritual high and expectation that I experienced at the start of the year.

Sometimes I feel like running away, but being tied down by responsibilities, I’m not so sure if it is a wise move. Is it tying me down for my own good? Or should I just throw in the towel and just care for my own soul? Is this considered sacrifice or a foolish thought?

What is black and white anymore in this world that is full of grey?


We sing…

“I want to know You…”

But if we don’t ever open the Scripture, how will we ever know our Creator?

“I will worship You forever…”

But if we do not know the Creator, how do we worship One whom we do not know?

And may worship move from “singing it out” to “living it out”.

Top 10 Traits Of A Great Christian Girlfriend – Real Christian Singles

Top 10 Traits Of A Great Christian Girlfriend – Real Christian Singles

by Lee Wilson

Moving a mountain

It was said that, love could move a mountain.


Then when I thought of Jesus, He did more than moved a mountain.

Jesus did what He did out of love for His Father.

And if He had just depended on His own feelings, I don’t think He will go to the cross…

Love is more than just a feeling. It is the willingness to let go of self for the wellbeing of another.

Being A Father

Walked through the terminal, saw a father laughing like a child while playing with his 2 children…

Sitting at the McDonald’s, watching a kid just enjoying his meal with his mum and dad…

It suddenly came to mind, that responsibility of watching over someone younger while I was coming back from Thailand a month ago.

How does it feel to be a father of a child?

I Am Rich

While walking on the train platform this morning, I looked at myself…

On my left hand is an iPad and an iPhone…

I’m wearing a rather nice t-shirt…

I’m wearing a pair of jeans and shoes…

Materially, I lack nothing.

I may not have the riches of the world, I lack nothing.

I am rich…

I have more than enough compared to many out there who don’t even have a shirt to wear.

I Invite? You Invite?

Many times I prayed, “God we invite your presence in this place…”

But the reality should be, “God, thank You for allowing me into Your presence in the first place.”

“When the two people who thus discover that they are on the same secret road are of different sexes, the friendship which arises between them will very easily pass – may pass in the first half hour – into erotic love. Indeed, unless they are physically repulsive to each other or unless one or both already loves elsewhere, it is almost certain to do so sooner or later. And conversely, erotic love may lead to Friendship between the lovers. But this, so far from obliterating the distinction between the two loves, puts it in a clearer light. If one who was first, in the deep and full sense, your Friend, is then gradually or suddenly revealed as also your lover you will certainly not want to share the Beloved’s erotic love with any third. But you will have no jealousy at all about sharing the Friendship. Nothing so enriches an erotic love as the discovery that the Beloved can deeply, truly and spontaneously enter into Friendship with the Friends you already had; to feel that not only are we two united by erotic love but we three or four or five are all travelers on the same quest, have all a common vision.”
― C.S. Lewis, The Four Loves

Change in Discipline

I remember that I used to post a lot of in the past. Then when I start to journal more in my notebook, my blogging frequency will go down. And it stands true now, especially since I only have a few hours a day to myself now that I’m sold to slave in the marketplace.

Working isn’t so bad. I still enjoy my work. Just that I’m usually worn out after work from all the brainstorming and learning.

One thing I’m training myself to do – reach office much earlier to journal and do my QT. Since I have been journaling more almost daily, this blog will soon be dying. But I’m still struggling to reach office early enough on Thurs and Fri since it is the end of week, my energy will usually be depleted much by then, with CG ending really late on Thursday.

Anyway, God didn’t just provide me with a job, but He also answered another prayer since last September – overseas trip for rest. And so I got it. My company went for a retreat where we had an entire day to ourselves. With this, I had a personal retreat paid for by my company when I just started out not long ago.

God has been blessing me so much. I am thankful.

The Nega-Positive

Before I stepped into the workforce, I heard a lot of words of cautions from various friends. Warnings such as “work will becoming tiring, don’t do too many ministry”, “work sucks…”, “once you enter workforce, you will not have a life anymore.”

I can’t judge the truth in these warning since it has only been my second week. But having talked to my colleagues for the past few days, their thoughts are so different! They are very positive about work and they actually love the job and the environment.

Then I reflect upon the words I say and the thoughts I have, I realize how negative I am. I was suspicious when my colleagues said they love what they are doing. As I look at them work, they really reflect the joy.

I feel so unchristian. It is time for me to renew my mind, capture those negative thoughts and cast it to the wind. I want the joy of the LORD to fill me daily. I want to be the salt in the workplace.

His Job & Ministry

Guess I am a little slow to update this here. I have been offered a job position with a Japanese firm last week and I would be starting work on the coming Monday. The miracle of receiving this job is that God has provided what I prayed for. As I was praying for God to provide a job, I prayed that I would still be able to attend CG on Thursday; have time for ministry on both Saturday and Sunday; and a salary of a certain amount. And true enough, this job that I am offered do not need to do OT unless its a emergency; 5 days job; the salary is what I have asked for, no more and no less (I should have asked for more… aiya… :p). I am thankful for this.

2013 has been very exciting so far, with a lot of events that have happened. In ministry wise, other than just joining the main worship team as an acoustic guitarist, I will be heading the worship ministry for the younger youths. And my task would be to pray and think of how to prepare the ministry in the next 6 months and launch a youth worship team by the end of the year.

With a new job and a new ministry responsibility, I hope I wouldn’t die halfway.

But if God has allowed me this way, I am sure He has a lot of lessons for me.


10 more months of excitements :)

The Music Gift

I was just sitting down on my bed with my guitar in hands thinking, what if God didn’t predestine me to be saved, what would I be doing now? But since I can’t imagine what could I be doing or how would I be living, I could only think of gifts that I wouldn’t have received.

I wouldn’t have thought that I could use my voice to express myself…

I wouldn’t have learned the guitar…

I wouldn’t have played any real instruments…

I wouldn’t have known that my voice and my guitar playing could be used for purpose that even I could never imagine…

But what is most important is I didn’t know how important my voice and my guitar playing is to my own emotion and spirituality. It is how I give thanks to God. It is how I pour out my grieve to God. It is how I talk to God.

If God should take this gift away from me one day, I really won’t know how would my life be.

The Rebellious Read

Just last Thursday, after watching The Hunger Games, I felt the urge to read up a little more about the plot on Wikipedia. I was a little confused at the end of the movie, something within me tells me that there must be more to the story portrayed in the movie. Reading the summary on Wiki, certain keywords such as ‘rebellion’ told me that I must read the book. So 9 days later, today, I have finished reading all 3 books in my very very free time.

It has to be an achievement for me, considering that it usually takes a month for me to finish a novel. I wonder if the rebellious self within me kept me going and hooked on the books, considering how the author has written to point that certain actions, though made innocently, can be viewed as rebellious actions against the authority that so created the laws/rules. Of course, being clamped and made slaves, a rebellion took place to overthrow the master. And what made the rebels ever more stronger is just a girl who has unknowingly become the face and voice for disobeying the master.

Guess it really just take one to ignite and make the fire burn stronger.

But it is just a novel anyway. Or is it true as well?

I am a reader who takes in the words and transform them into pictures in my head, a movie happening without the surround sound or the big screens. Having spent long hours reading and not knowing how quickly time has passed by, the movie continued into my dreams with me either being in the arena of the Hunger Games, or images of rebellion taking place around me. I do not know if this is a good or bad thing. Maybe it doesn’t matter. But I’ve truly enjoyed reading the novels. I do not regret spending my past days reading, considering that it must have been years since I last so enjoyed a novel.

So update to my job hunt…

I have two upcoming interviews next Tuesday with two different companies – both dealing with IT for supply chain management. I’m not so sure how prominent is one of the  company, but the other is definitely well known in the industry. But after going for 2 career fairs this week, I wish my previous employer will contact me soon to get me for an interview – IT for healthcare industry. Even though it would just be an interview, I can’t help playing in my head, what should I do if both companies offer me positions?

Guess I should worry about how am I going to answer the questions that they will pose to me first than any other thing. Who knows, maybe one of them will reject me and my previous employer will never call me for an interview.

Time for guitar.

The Jobless Me

Being jobless isn’t too bad tonight, since my availability has allowed me to watch two movies one after another, not having to worry about waking up on time for school or even work. 

So I have just watched Total Recall (2012 edition) and The Hunger Games. I am very impressed with each movie, each with its own credits. 

Total Recall – I remember watching the 90’s version when I was very young. I can’t exactly remember how the 90’s version went, only remembering about it being on a red planet (or I may be wrong). Anyway, what impressed me about this movie was the way the producer has planned the characters in details. Douglas Quaid (acted by Colin Farrell) was a confused guy. After being injected with some chemicals at Rekell, he suddenly turned into a spy with all sorts of survival and shooting skills. He became a confused guy with confused identity which confused me as well, especially at the moment when he was confronted by Harry and an entire platoon of security troopers. It may either be that I am stupid or that the producer was good at making me think about the identity of Douglas, who is actually Carl Hauser. 

One quote that Matthias (the resistance head) said that caught my attention, “It is each man’s quest to find out who he truly is, but the answer to that lies in the present, not in the past. As it is for all of us……. The past is a construct of the mind. It blinds us. It fools us into believing it. But the heart wants to live in the present. Look there. You’ll find your answer.”

The Hunger Games – Wow, it is better than I thought. I was a little reluctant to watch the show as I thought it would be some sort of love story between one girl and another guy trying to survive in a gladiator match. Guess I was wrong, it is more than that. Throughout the show, I couldn’t understand how on earth would any government be willing to watch teenagers kill each other as a form of entertainment. It steers anger within me to think that it may actually be happening in the real world, but in a form that is slightly different. Or maybe not out to kill one another, but to overcome the other so that one could live a better life. 

When the “match” started, the scene of the tributes killing one another as they ran for weapons was just too much for me. I really pray that humanity will never ever reach the stage where only one could survive. 

I am not making much sense anymore. It is a rather thought provoking show about society actually. But as it is already 1am in the morning, I shall give my brain a rest for a while. 

God Uses Ordinary/Inadequate People

Pastor CK shared over the pulpit something that is familiar, but is important to my heart. Found a version of it on another website.

God uses ordinary people for His purposes. Imperfect people. Noah was a drunk; Abraham was old and a liar; Sarah laughed at God’s promises; Jacob was a deceiver; Leah was ugly. Joseph was abused; Moses had a stuttering problem and a short fuse;

God uses ordinary people. Miriam was a gossip; Gideon was afraid; Samson had long hair and was a womanizer; Jeremiah and Timothy were too young. Naomi was a widow; Job went bankrupt; David wasn’t even considered leadership material – his dad didn’t even consider him. Then he committed adultery; Solomon was too rich. Elijah was burned-out and suicidal;

God uses ordinary people. Jeremiah was depressed; Jonah ran from God; Hosea’s wife was a prostitute. John the Baptist ate bugs; Martha worried about everything; the Samaritan woman was divorced, more than once; Peter denied Christ; Thomas doubted; Zaccheus was short; John Mark was rejected by Paul; Paul himself was too religious, plus, he was a murderer, as were Moses and David. And of course, Lazarus was dead. But, today, God still uses ordinary people.


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